“Oh my God… Why am I still here? Why can’t I awake? Can this be my reality? Oh my God… save me, rescue me, HELP me, Take me!”
From time to time… I find myself still enough to see the waters around me, and I panic. As I remember to fix my eyes on Jesus and call out His name, I am saved once again from being consumed by the waves and the imminent peril. If I wasn’t living my life and engaged with my Savior, I would not BELIEVE any of it.
Today, is one of those times… “Oh my God, is this all just a bad dream? Was it wrong to desire shared communion with You and another? Were my visions of cooperative ministry the true deceptor? I was willing to give up the me I knew and the style of my wants that go with it, for YOU LORD. Oh my God, was I wrong? Should I have desired more or different? If this is my case, I plead… JESUS > rescue me. Oh my God, I am desperate for You… lost without You… dead without You!”
“Oh my God… Who am I and what is my house that You have brought me… here?” “I know You have a hope and a plan for me. I know that You have formed me and fashioned me, especially me, for such a time as this. You know every nook and cranny of my heart, soul, and being. Oh my God… Where is my hope? What is the Plan? What form do I take… by Your design? What is Your timetable that I may seek patience? And what am I… to be?”
“Oh my God!!!”
Tuesday, January 4, 2011