The Day after…

 … The Cross!

What did that look, sound, and feel like for Mary Magdalene, Simon Peter, the beloved John, Mother Mary… or to you????

I can only imagine…
The heart of Mary Magdalene, from the Cross…

“N_O_!   How could this happen?  It can’t be real.  The memories of the Cross will stay with me forever.  I couldn’t bare to see You suffer, but I couldn’t stand to walk away.  I wanted You to see me.  I wanted to be there for You, like You have been… for me.  I wanted You to see that You’re not alone.  Oh God, I have failed You.  Because of me, there’s You… high and lifted up on a cross.”

“Oh my Lord!  I look around.  Where have all the people gone?  Did they not see You or hear You?  Were they not touched by You, healed, or fed by You?  There is such great emptiness here now Lord.  My heart grieves Your loss.  You were the great love of my life.  Jesus, where has all the LOVE gone?”

“All that fills the air for me now, Jesus, is the deafening sound of silence or the heart-breaking roar of victory, from all those who would not receive You.  I can barely move from hopelessness, Lord, but the distasteful ballot of the people’s choice, still stirs me to anger.”

[hopeless sobbing]

“J_E_S_U_S!  Why do I feel so alone?  Why do I feel like a part of me has died?  Why do I feel so detached and distant?  It was just yesterday that I saw You.  I heard You when You said You must go, but would rise again.  When, where, and how will I know?  I so want to be there!  And until then… What do I say and what do I do?  Where do I go… and whom shall I speak to?  I don’t care if it kills me Jesus, I want to see You, hear You, and pour out to You… Again!  And I’ve still gotta know… where are You right now?”

“Teacher, who will instruct me?  Lord, who will protect me?  Counselor, who will understand me?  Friend, who will love me for me?  How can I live without You Jesus?  I don’t want to.  Oh my God…  help me!”

“From this day forward, Lord, I want to be with You.  Wherever You are and wherever You say “GO”, I want to go.  Whatever You do and whatever You say “Be DONE”, I want to do also.  I want to sit at Your feet, carry Your oil, listen to Your voice, and hang on Your every Word!  I can’t breathe without You…  resuscitate me Jesus!  Lord I need You!  Where may I find You now?”

Mary speaks for me… from the heart.

I cannot speak for others, but for me when someone very near and dear to me; someone I so loved and spent time with daily, passes on, I gotta know “What are they thinking, seeing, hearing, tasting, feeling at this very moment?”  “What is my friend’s reality right now?”  “Christian… What is the Word God gives you today?”  I’ve gotta know…


The greatest gift anyone of us can give the people we so love is… the gift of peace and assurance that when we “go”[pass away here] we are in “Better Hands Now” with Jesus!  HE is our reality!  “JESUS IS ALIVE!!!”

Don’t cry for me… here.  I’ll be with my Jesus… there!

… jams4JESUS


About jam4JESUS

I... 'will seek [First] the LORD my God, and I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart and with all my soul.' Deut. 4:29 I... 'shall love the LORD my God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.' Deut. 6:5 I... 'Trust in the LORD with all my heart, And lean not on my own understanding; In all ways... acknowledge Him, And He shall make my path straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6 I... 'remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you' 2Tim. 1:6 I... 'thank God, whom I serve... without ceasing... I... remember YOU in my prayers night and day,' 2Tim. 1:3 I... am to 'Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God' Phil. 4:6 I... KNOW: 'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.' Phil.4:13 'My God shall supply all my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.' Phil. 4:19 'My GOD will never leave me, nor forsake me.' Heb. 13:5 JESUS so loves me, this I... KNOW
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  3. jams4JESUS says:

    Reblogged this on nnyPHISHnet's Blog and commented:

    I was reminded of my post [“The Day after…”] earlier this morning, and even having written it a little over 3 years ago, I could not help but think of it now as… “The Drama after”. “Don’t take this the wrong way Julie- but drama. The Lord blesses you with a dramatic calling.”

    Well, I don’t know about all that, or even what to call me, but what I do know is this– I need only be known as ‘one that the Lord loves and uses’. So if it’s with drama– drama it is!

    And as for “The Day after”… I sincerely experience, share, and do feel the words I’ve put in Mary Magdalene’s mouth, for such a time as this. And I wonder –
    “Doesn’t everybody?” Haven’t we all loved someone so deeply; trusted wholeheartedly; hoped for the impossible to be possible; expected miracles; added our own agenda; listened and watched so intently; sought to grasp or savor every word, experience, or memory; poured our hearts out; gave it all we had, even to the last drop… and in an instant, all that, was gone [and with it, our hopes and dreams]? Or, while in ‘that place’, we’ve found ourselves again– feeling completely alone, void, invisible, unlovely & unlovable, empty, in the company of doubt, drought, & insecurity, or surrounded on all sides by darkness? How many times have we of little faith been at the feet and mercy of Jesus, crying out loud with… “Help me Lord, I’m drowning here!” “Why am I so alone?” “Oh my God, I thought You loved me. What am I going to do now?” and “My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?”

    So this morning, I found myself once again, identifying with many people of the Bible [because His Word ‘is a living for me’]. And most specifically, I thought about Mary Magdalene. Who is one, I’ve found a significant connection to…
    “Turning toward the woman, He said… “Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave Me no water for My feet, but she has wet My feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You gave Me no kiss; but she, since the time I came in, has not ceased to kiss My feet. 46 You did not anoint My head with oil, but she anointed My feet with perfume. 47 For this reason I say to you, her sins, which are many, have been forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.” 48 Then He said to her, “Your sins have been forgiven.” 49 Those who were reclining at the table with Him began to say to themselves, “Who is this man who even forgives sins?” 50 And He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.” [Luke 7:44-50]

    So here’s my drama as told from the viewpoint of Mary… the day [or two] after The Old Rugged Cross…


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