Will you love me, even before someone tells you to? When it is… not the pastor, not your respected friend or family, not even God Himself, that demands it? Will you love me when no one is looking, and when we’re alone, will it be me you see? Will you love me, for me?
I desire nothing by forced choice. As the Father “made” His children with choice, I seek no less from my “family”. Our God gave us the option to love, serve, and live with Him because we would so love to, not because HE “made” us to. What good is obedience and sacrifice if it is only for obedience and sacrifice’s sake?
Do you find value, passion, and respect for me… because it’s me? Or, does the competition and “laws” bind your heart in chains… because it’s me? When you see me walk by and by, does your heart skip a beat and your spirit make a connection? Or, does your heart sink as a reminder that the spirit isn’t in it? So can you answer my question…
“He loves me, he loves me not. He loves me, he loves me… ?”
I was reminded today of my first love and where I have come… I was sitting outside in my garden, worshipping my God and all the beauty He surrounds me with, when a dragonfly landed directly across from me, and hovered there. I smiled and thought God created you, for me… for this very moment. I noticed a double portion of wings and a beautifully placed contrast of color embodying this amazing creature, which could take flight at will.
And I went back…
I went back to a time, not all that long ago, when I would not have seen God’s creation[s]. I could not even see God. There was beauty all around me, but I was consumed with the clutter and chaos that the world had to offer. I could not get passed the hurt and pain of life gone really wrong. I could not wrap my head around how Jesus could come, die, or be remotely connected to this planet [with me in it], for me! It was not until Jesus grabbed my hand and heart, that I made a choice to seek after Him, to know Him, to love Him, to serve Him… for Him. And it was at that moment, that I saw the beauty… ‘He gave for me’.
The Lord truly works in beautifully creative and mysterious ways… sometimes with a dragonfly, sometimes a donkey, always with a purpose and a plan.
Jesus loves me. HE loves me… for me! This I know!
Still waiting for your answer.
I took notice of the dragonfly as it took flight to a destination unknown. It hovered one last time before leaving… as if to say, “My work here is done”.