PRAY for a Good CLEAN Fight…

….because sometimes you have to pray to fight your owned battles.

“Oh my God, I pray a hedge of protection, a wall of defense, a divine army… to surround me, this sanctuary, and all who are in it.  Oh my God… I cry ‘Jesus’… deliver Your people, deliver me”.

As I sat in my favorite church sanctuary, stationed across from and under my window of Jesus… something really bad happened.  I can’t tell you what was being spoke at the time.  It was an awe-inspiring message on prayer and discipleship, from a team bringing to the body, awesome prophetic prayer and song.  So why?  Having just experienced an amazing move of the Spirit and a great day in the Son, did I see a dark presence sweep across the back of me?  It moved from my right to my left and I felt a press against my head.  I grabbed my hair and turned around, and no one had walked passed.  I did not fear, but looked to the One for rescue.

At the moment of darkness, I felt immediate chaos, confusion, distraction, depression, detachment, and sin.  And after several failed attempts, I began to pray…

“Oh my God, I pray a hedge of protection, a wall of defense, a divine army… to surround me, this sanctuary, and all who are in it.  Oh my God… I cry ‘Jesus’… deliver Your people, deliver me”.

An offering of prayer was extended to all who were in the house.  I waited, hoping this battlefield in my mind would call for a cease-fire.  It didn’t.  I even stood for prayer, but this cloud of darkness[?] appeared to take me captive and the distraction increased.  I was diverted to others, thinking that was where the Lord wanted me.  But now I see the possibility that the enemy wanted to divide me, to conquer.  I sat down… no prayer for me.  Instead, I prayed for others.  This is where the Lord blesses.

As I listened in on the prayers for others, I was blessed by the words and prayers of encouragement for them.  I know that God has ‘a hope and a plan’ for love and discipleship, and for a love of discipleship… for each one of us.  I listened with joy for the body, as God’s blessings fell on them.  It was beautiful.  When suddenly, my mind went to a place I hate… a place called envy.  My heart sank…

“Oh my Jesus, why can’t I be better than this?”  “Why, if I have Your Life living inside of me, do I repeatedly fall down, come up short?”  “Jesus You have to take this from me, sweep my house, cast out this enemy… for good!  This place is not even fitted for pigs, let alone a child of the living God.  Please Jesus… I am desperate!”

As I cried out this prayer, my eyes fixed on a picture I had not noticed before.  It was a picture of Jesus and His disciples at the ‘Last Supper’.  And for me, this represents Fellowship and Communion with God.  And speaks…

“Behold, I [Jesus] stand at the door and knock, anyone who hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.” [Rev. 3:20]

As I stared intently and desperately at the portrait, a smile came across my face and it was then that I understood… and the Truth had set me free.  Indeed!  The Sword had sliced a veil that was covering my eyes.  And over and over I heard… “The harvest is plenty, but the laborers are few.”

So[w]… I prayed for others.  And this is where the Lord blesses.

My prayer today is that I “get It” sooner than later, Lord.  I had felt as if I was a fish out of water.  This was my home church, yet I felt like an outsider, an alien, or an enemy.  I cried  “Jesus, where can I find cover and who has my back?  And why oh why, am I not ‘armed’ and ready?  Oh when, will I ever learn?”

So[w] for today…

I pray to believe, that You Lord, are in and can do all things; and that sometimes the victory lies in knowing that in me, there’s You, and You give to me my owned battles to Pray… the good CLEAN fight.

Matthew 17:14-21 [New American Standard Bible]

The Demoniac
14 When they came to the crowd, a man came up to Jesus, falling on his knees before Him and saying, 15 “Lord, have mercy on my son, for he is a lunatic and is very ill; for he often falls into the fire and often into the water. 16 I brought him to Your disciples, and they could not cure him.” 17 And Jesus answered and said, “You unbelieving and perverted generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring him here to Me.” 18And Jesus rebuked him, and the demon came out of him, and the boy was cured at once.

19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?” 20 And He *said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you. 21 [But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.”]

PRAY… for a good clean fight!
…  jams4JESUS

Isn’t it just like Jesus to leave one wanting more?!  So I pray…  in petition to the body of Christ “Oh where can I find cover and who has my back?  We are One in the Spirit, One in the Lord!  We all have an enemy that lurks in the shadows with a mission to rob, kill, and destroy our joy, along with the plans the Lord has made… for us.  Fight with Jesus [inside]… and from our inside [Jesus]… pray out.”

As I concluded this blog, my thoughts led me to my daily devotional Scriptures with Dr. Charles Stanley, which I had neglected to read yesterday… Testing Positive for Growth  Read | Ephesians 4:14-16

I leave to your discernment and growth…

14 As a result, we are no longer to be children, tossed here and there by waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, by craftiness in deceitful scheming; 15 but speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in all aspects into Him who is the head, even Christ, 16 from whom the whole body, being fitted and held together by what every joint supplies, according to the proper working of each individual part, causes the growth of the body for the building up of itself in love. [Ephesians 4:14-16]

“Dear Lord, I would so love to no longer place my attention to the right or to the left… but fixed on You.  That I may have, and entertain, no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them. [Eph. 5:11]”  … jams

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About jam4JESUS

I... 'will seek [First] the LORD my God, and I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart and with all my soul.' Deut. 4:29 I... 'shall love the LORD my God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.' Deut. 6:5 I... 'Trust in the LORD with all my heart, And lean not on my own understanding; In all ways... acknowledge Him, And He shall make my path straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6 I... 'remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you' 2Tim. 1:6 I... 'thank God, whom I serve... without ceasing... I... remember YOU in my prayers night and day,' 2Tim. 1:3 I... am to 'Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God' Phil. 4:6 I... KNOW: 'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.' Phil.4:13 'My God shall supply all my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.' Phil. 4:19 'My GOD will never leave me, nor forsake me.' Heb. 13:5 JESUS so loves me, this I... KNOW
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