I have been asked recently to present a ‘short-bio’ of who I am, by a couple of wonderful friends [Pat Noble and Pat Wilbur, NorthernChristian.org]. And even though they do not know me as a close neighbor geographically, they too must know how difficult a task, writing a ‘short-bio’ would present me.
“Who am I, O Lord, and what is my house that You have brought me this far?”
I have been honored by my friends at Northern Christian, to announce to you WHATs NEW4Events. However blessed, I still can’t wrap my head around how I got to this place. You see, three years ago, I was completely afflicted by a condition I call “technologically challenged”. The Lord had just laid on my heart and plate to ‘build a website’ [“PHISHnet”], an on-line Jesus net @work. And after numerous conversations with the Lord on His obvious error in choosing me, I conceded and began looking for assistance.
For two years, I searched and bugged people, to no avail. Until that day… the day I had lost all hope and I cried out…
“O my God, why do You keep me here??? I fail You at every turn. People have said this and that over me, but how can any of this be… I am a nobody and ‘I’ve got nothin’ without You, and I can prove it’… I don’t even have a job. I can’t do what You have asked of me. I am not who You think I am. So God… what do You say? “Who am I, O Lord, and what is my house, that You have brought me this far?”… to this place? For what purpose am I here? I can’t get the job done. I am useless to Your kingdom. I know Lord, that You are in and can do all things, but my heart so wants to delight Yours Lord, that my weakness cripples and breaks mine. So… if You Lord want a website… ‘please’… You are going to have to build it Yourself, miraculously implant this ability in me, or place someone in my path to teach me.”
I am here today to tell you… HE did all three. Within days of my prayer, I received a forwarded email announcing a FREE…
“:: UPCOMING WEB WORKSHOP :: Mark your calendars! We will be hosting a workshop on Saturday, June 5 from 9:00am to Noon (location TBA). We will cover website building, effective use of on-line social networking (like Facebook and Twitter), and other on-line concepts for churches and ministries.”
The workshop was at Clarkson University and you do realize by now… that I was there w_a_y passed Noon… 😉
[THANK YOU ♥ PAT & PAT!]
I did not walk away from this day with two computer programmers to do my bidding, but rather two awesome friends who joined me in fellowship, networking, and love… as teachers. The Lord had given them a heart bent on ‘training me up in the way I should go’. And I THANK GOD for them. My journey since June 5, 2010 has been miraculously God… HAPPY BIRTHed DAY nnyPHISHnet! We did it! Thank You Lord!
I repeat myself when I tell you that “I hate reading & writing, and I can prove it!” It was not until the Lord wrestled me to the ground [“Get on your face before Me, and tell Me who it is, you love!”], that I could do either… or well. To this day, I remain “technologically challenged”. (I’m thinking- that if God were to use the cream of the crop, where would be the testimony if He started from the top?)
Again- how did the Lord answer my desperate prayer? He didn’t just answer with one, but all three! (I’m so grateful! ) ♥ And if you find any good, or like what you see, hear, or feel- don’t thank me. Thank Jesus! For all the things I’m not, there’s Jesus! For all the things I am, there’s Jesus! For all… Stands Jesus!
“Behold, I [Jesus] stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me.” [Revelation 3:20]
So here I am, at the sort-of end of my ‘short-bio’, and I haven’t even scribed a tip from the proverbial iceberg of testimony, blessing, or biography, of ‘who I am’ and how far I have come… with Him. I could qualify myself with a resume of worldly credentials, but I count my masters degree in counseling+ as nothing, compared to the honor and glory of serving Him. It is in God alone, that I qualify.
Jesus is my only religion. My church is the Kingdom of God. And I stand and proclaim… for unity in His body, awaiting His revival and second arrival… “The Kingdom of God is near!” And when we are all on the same page… there is Holy God; high and lifted up.
I have often said “If you have to ask me if I am a ‘Christian’, then I am not doing my job.” Shouldn’t my spirit and the Light go before me, announcing my faith? So I ask you “How am I doing?” When I ask the Lord… “Who am I, O Lord, and what is my house, that You have brought me this far?”, I can’t help but look to you and ask “What do you see?” Shouldn’t it be you and your letter of recommendation, who writes on my behalf?
As I was writing this post, I realized the location to where I had poured my heart out…
“O my God… I fail You at every turn… if You Lord want a website, You are going to have to build it Yourself, miraculously implant this ability in me, or place someone in my path to teach me.”,
…I was driving on a two-mile stretch of road leading to “Old MacDonald’s Farm” in Smithville, NY. These fields and this farm will always have a place in my heart and in my field of mission and dreams. A family of friends, a ‘roll-over’ accident in faith, a devastating explosion illuminating ‘on-fire heroes’, solo prayer warriors, unseen miracles, an evangelical birthday, and numerous testimonies of “♪ we’re gathered together ♪”, were found in this certain place. Praise the Living God. And why wait four months and then the harvest… for the fields are white! I respectfully submit.
“Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart.” [Psalm 37:4]
“And all things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.” [Matthew 21:22]