“I am so sorry for your loss.”

I don’t want to do what I do because you say “that is right”, in confirming this word or that word.  I don’t want to get hung up there.  I absolutely love Jesus and I want to do what I do to the glory of God, because the Bible tells me so… and that makes it right.

“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” [Romans 8:28]

I have often thought what, why, and for what purpose, would God want to call me.  I botch up my witness of Him to you so often, I can visualize myself ripping my tongue out.  “Cut it off!”  “Cut it out!” … stand out as my common prayers.  “Better is one day in Your courts Lord, than a thousand elsewhere.”

My heart so wants to get it right for Jesus the first time and always.  But when I look at you… my children, my family, my friends, and those known and unknown to me who the Lord says “go”, I feel so dismayed in my heart and spirit in how I’ve let you down; failed you!   But please hear me out when I say…

Please, please, please… don’t blame God for my crimes against you; my blind eyes toward you.  It was not Jesus who said a bad word, did the wrong thing, gave too much or not enough; who left you alone, got carried away with anger, got there late, or robbed you and left you for dead.  It was not Jesus who ripped your heart out, and replaced it with a stone.  It is me you’re looking for.  I am so sorry for your loss!

I cry often… “Oh my God don’t let anything in or out of me, that You do not approve.”   Please Lord, don’t let your name be used in vain, on account of me.  So where I once felt overwhelming shame, this Jesus, whose name of which I often speak, has removed even my ‘claim to shame’.

“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” [Romans 8:28]

He saw my heart [Romans 8:27] and He knew how to work it for good.  It was never about me.  It was always about Him!  Where I once saw myself drowning and mourning for my loss, and yours, I now can look down to where I’ve been, and all I’ve done, and know that He with me, have risen… above it all!

And so for today… I can live with myself, knowing that my circumstances, my crimes, my curse words, and my short-falls do not define me, but rather can teach me in the right way to go… God first and always.  And in Him… all things work together for good!

For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you [& me], will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” [Philippians 1:6]

Until then, I am so sorry for your loss.

…  jams4JESUS

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About jam4JESUS

I... 'will seek [First] the LORD my God, and I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart and with all my soul.' Deut. 4:29 I... 'shall love the LORD my God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.' Deut. 6:5 I... 'Trust in the LORD with all my heart, And lean not on my own understanding; In all ways... acknowledge Him, And He shall make my path straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6 I... 'remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you' 2Tim. 1:6 I... 'thank God, whom I serve... without ceasing... I... remember YOU in my prayers night and day,' 2Tim. 1:3 I... am to 'Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God' Phil. 4:6 I... KNOW: 'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.' Phil.4:13 'My God shall supply all my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.' Phil. 4:19 'My GOD will never leave me, nor forsake me.' Heb. 13:5 JESUS so loves me, this I... KNOW
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2 Responses to “I am so sorry for your loss.”

  1. jams4JESUS says:

    Reblogged this on nnyPHISHnet's Blog and commented:

    “My heart so wants to get it right for Jesus the first time and always. But when I look at you… my children, my family, my friends, and those known and unknown to me who the Lord says “go”, I feel so dismayed in my heart and spirit in how I’ve let you down; failed you! But please hear me out when I say…
    Please, please, please… don’t blame God for my crimes against you; my blind eyes toward you. It was not Jesus who said a bad word, did the wrong thing, gave too much or not enough; who left you alone, got carried away with anger, got there late, or robbed you and left you for dead. It was not Jesus who ripped your heart out, and replaced it with a stone. It is me you’re looking for. I am so sorry for your loss!”

    “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work [in me], will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” [Philippians 1:6]

    Until then, I am so sorry for your loss.
    … jams4JESUS

    I have a favor to ask you… please do not comment on my posts. You are welcome to read them if you so choose but please no commentary. I am in that place where all I will take in at this time is God’s Word. I do not want to appear rude or deemed uncaring for not reading or responding to others… I am just not going there [Wordpress, etc…] at this time. No one has hurt me or anything else. I just need to be in a place to filter out all things not from His lips. This blog was never my idea and so when I post, I pray that I have only His heart in mind. I truly dislike reading & writing, with only one exception… God’s. I am not doing this for me… but the One who sent me.

    I have several drafted posts that will remain drafts until I am ready to post them. When I do, you may like them if you must, but I make no guarantee that I will read or respond back to yours. Please know that your posts were a Blessing to me when I read them ~but~ it was getting to be so much for me that I was neglecting my time with the Lord. I was in your word more than I was in His. I love you, but I love HIM more!
    CRAZY ABOUT JESUS! jams

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  2. robind333 says:

    What a wonderful heart-felt post!!! Many, many blessings to you….Robin

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