Last night, I had a dream. It was so real, that I thought I was there again. It seems like just yesterday, that ‘you promised’… to love me forever, like me for always, never to leave me, until death do us part. You were right there with me, and then you were gone. How could this happen? I believed! You called me half of you… your ‘split-apart’. Was I to take that literally? I trusted you. Where did you go? How could I not see that you left? I thought forever was a long time. And now I know that it is. I would watch over you, as you slept and I would pray…
“Lord I have finally found love, I will surely break if you took him away from me now. You have answered my prayers, I am healed! I need him in my life. I will die without him. Dear God, PLEASE bless him and keep him forever safe and Yours [assuming mine]. Amen!”
Oh my God, why couldn’t I see the warning signs of my terminal illness and turn aside from my unhealthy ways, before it was too late? And why was I not informed of his death, before that part became final? I believed nothing could separate us… until death do us part. Are there any ‘grounds’, found sacred anymore?
Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief!
Fast forward… to today. I know now I can’t go backwards or rewind. It would not be the same, nor should it… to death we did part. And it really did [does] feel like death.
“Where you die, I will die, and there I will be buried. Thus may the LORD do to me, and worse, if anything but death parts you and me.” [Ruth 1:17]
“Dear God, PLEASE bless him and keep him forever safe and Yours” may mean removing him from me for both him and me. I know this now, but it still is painful. For each of us to pursue our relationship with God, we had to do so, from our distance. It was having had experienced Acts 10 and “What God has cleansed you must not call common” [Acts 10:15] that has given me peace, grace, and understanding. Thank You Lord!
1 And God spoke all these words, saying:
2“I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.
3“You shall have no other gods before Me.
4“You shall not make for yourself a carved image—any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; 5 you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, 6 but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments. [Exodus 20]
“El Qanna”… my God is a jealous God. He has a right to be. He is our Creator, Savior, Protector, Provider, Healer, Guide, Lover, our Lord! What or whom we put before or between Him and us, is not ours to possess or claim. It was HIS first! HE loved us first! We are but second bests or hired hands in comparison. So understand His jealousy to be in our best interest. When the thief, the enemy, comes to rob, kill, divide, and destroy, let it be the jealousy of the Lord, that protects His investments… all that was His from the beginning. He desires us also, to be zealous in our passion, pursuits, and commitment with absolutely the highest regard and protectiveness for our covenant with Him. HE does not take lightly, that which threatens or interrupts our relationship with Him. HE is a jealous God and an ‘Over-all Protective’ Father. I know this to be true, because the Lord says to me, “How can you take what is Mine and call it your own? It was Mine first, from the beginning.” “You will credit Me for the save!” “And in this way, I save you to Myself.” “It’s not about you. It’s about Me [Jesus]. I AM GRACE!” “I AM the God of Restoration! I AM the God of Healing! I AM GOD!” And… “Get on your face before ME, and tell ME, who it is you love!”
I stand corrected!
For those who know me…
Job 16:12… “I was at ease, but he hath broken me asunder: he hath also taken me by my neck, and shaken me to pieces, and set me up for his mark.”
… SORRY, I couldn’t resist.