“Oh my God, I have seen and believe in Your mercy, grace, lovingkindness and testimonies toward me… old and new.
I know I am not worthy of any of them, but I so want to be ‘worth it’… to You.
I know Lord that You are for me. I know that You are with me. I know I can do all things with You in me. But why Lord, have I found myself once again, at the end of me?”
Today, a vision returns to me…
I am in the back of the sanctuary at the church I so loved first. There is a man of God standing over me who does not know my name… any of them. He looks down at me, huddled in a lump of clay, or rather, a lump of me… in question.
Facing the ground I can see the intricate details of the rug where my tears of familiar prayers and intercession, fall. “Oh my God, please take me. Jesus, I want to be with You. I can’t stand to be here anymore. Oh my Lord, it’s You I want. There is no life for me here or anywhere, outside of You. If I were loved in this place, wouldn’t I know it? If they loved me wouldn’t they desire to care for me; protect me; spend time with me? I see You Jesus, standing in their place! Oh my God, PLEASE, I want to go with You… now. Please just take me.”
As the man of God stands over me, he appears puzzled, annoyed, or in a quandary. And his next words appear motivated, half out of trying to rid me from his presence and half out of doing the right Christian thing, when he says…
“Whoever she belongs to, come, and pick her up.”
I stand immediately, with arms raised in praise. My countenance has changed… beauty from ashes, an oil of joy for mourning, a garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness… and I rise. All see me, and then I’m gone.
“THANK YOU JESUS!”
Where I go from here, “no-body” knows but HIM.
Don’t cry for me, I’m with BEAUTY!
The Good News of Salvation
1 “The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon Me,
Because the LORD has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD,
And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
3 To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.”
4 And they shall rebuild the old ruins,
They shall raise up the former desolations,
And they shall repair the ruined cities,
The desolations of many generations.
5 Strangers shall stand and feed your flocks,
And the sons of the foreigner
Shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
6 But you shall be named the priests of the LORD,
They shall call you the servants of our God.
You shall eat the riches of the Gentiles,
And in their glory you shall boast.
7 Instead of your shame you shall have double honor,
And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion.
Therefore in their land they shall possess double;
Everlasting joy shall be theirs.
8“ For I, the LORD, love justice;
I hate robbery for burnt offering;
I will direct their work in truth,
And will make with them an everlasting covenant.
9 Their descendants shall be known among the Gentiles,
And their offspring among the people.
All who see them shall acknowledge them,
That they are the posterity whom the LORD has blessed.”
10 I will greatly rejoice in the LORD,
My soul shall be joyful in my God;
For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation,
He has covered me with the robe of righteousness,
As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments,
And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
11 For as the earth brings forth its bud,
As the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth,
So the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.