What if… life depends on it?

“Mom… What if I die before you do?”
“Well then… tell Jesus I said “HI” when you get there!”

And so I was, taken back…

“Oh my God, why don’t You just take me?  I want to go!  I want to live in Your House, Your Court, at Your Church Jesus.  I’m ready!?  ♪Better is one day in Your court then a thousand elsewhere… ♪

If it be Your Will Lord that I die, then I die; or if to live, I live.  If it is the former THANK YOU!… And I pray it so that my last breath is spent praising You.  If it be the latter… please let me live and lay out my life as a living testimony to You.  In either direction… PRAISE YOU THE LIVING GOD!  Have Your Will & Way with me… not as I will, but as You Will!”

I am sure I sound like a broken record to the Lord with this certain cry and prayer from my heart.  So for such a time as this, He gave me a different spin… on my record.

“Mom… What if I die before you do?”  [my 10 year old son at bedtime last night]
“Well then… tell Jesus I said “HI” when you get there!” [me]
He smiled & I smiled bigger.  [Reality… √check]

I know my children, especially my son, have been feeling their own physical mortality lately.  And as it was last night, as our dialogue [above] concluded, I said a little prayer… again “Lord please take me first!?”

As I pondered even more this morning, about my children, my family, my friends, I concluded that it is best that I go first.  I looked up, with a question… “Is that OK with You Lord?”  If my children, my Dad [parents], my siblings, my entire family[s], and my friends, were to perhaps feel my loss in their lives, maybe they will want to join me when it is their time; to go where… I AM?  And if they are following me, they’ll have nowhere to go but up.

I know my Dad takes particular interest in my well-being.  I have told him many times by now that he does not have to worry about me… when I go [die] I go to the [our] Father.  So in my understanding… it makes perfect sense that I go first, as incentive.
[Sidebar note… My Dad is all about insurance.  My Father is all about assurance.]

It was at this particular time in our talk [For He calls me “friend”… John 15], that the Lord posed this question to me…

“What if… their life depends on you living, speaking, and breathing into theirs?”  And…

“Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.” [John 15:13]

WOW God!  For me, this is the Scripture [John 15:13], that lays down and lays out the foundation and motivation in my heart, to share anything about myself [my testimony] to others.  And a challenge…

“For one will hardly die for a righteous man; though perhaps for the good man someone would dare even to die.” [Romans 5:7]

We [I] are so quick to run into a burning building to rescue, or even die, for our family, our friends, our pets, our property, or our country… but for the one who hurts us, steals from us, tries to or succeeds in killing us?  [As for me… not so much!]

“What if… their life depends on you living, speaking, and breathing into theirs?”

I had a vision a few years ago where I had lain awake, trying to fall asleep, but couldn’t.  When I had closed my eyes I found myself physically paralyzed to open them again.  I tried to wake someone so that they could tell me what was sitting on my head- but couldn’t.  I felt the presence of evil… I saw loved ones and people unknown to me (the unsaved?) walking straight toward Hell and I could not stop them.  I was still trying to open my eyes and couldn’t.  I felt the weight of the world [like sin] on top of my head and eyes.  I thought that the weight would crush me to death, but I felt no pain… just intense pressure.  It was then that I heard “Will you die for them?”  This question kept being repeated.  I pondered for a split second… ‘I know I am saved.  When I go, I go to Jesus [they can take this body, but never my soul].’  I answered from my heart with “Yes”.  From here, I fell promptly asleep.  That was all I remembered… not even a dream in the night, until I awoke the next morning. [*]

“What if… their life depends on you living, speaking, and breathing into theirs?”

“Would you live out and lay down [out] your life… for them?”

I pray it so…

“My Father, who lives in Heaven, Holy be Your Name.  Your Kingdom c_o_m_e!  Your Will be d_o_n_e!  On Earth… as it is in Heaven!  AMEN!”

“What if…  I created you, exactly, for such a time as this?” … Love, Jesus

And this is why “I’m different”!
…  jams4JESUS 

Romans 14: 7 For not one of us lives for himself, and not one dies for himself; 8 for if we live, we live for the Lord, or if we die, we die for the Lord; therefore whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s. 9 For to this end Christ died and lived again, that He might be Lord both of the dead and of the living.
[Thank you Dr. Stanley & In Touch Ministries for the Daily Devotional Scripture reading from Romans 14… for today.]

[*] I am not up for debate as to the origin or sender of this vision.  Whether this is a clever or persuasive ensnarement of the enemy, or a test, is of no matter to me.  I know my God is in all things and in all matters concerning me.  Whether as my protector or perfector… there is God!

“Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.  If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take. Amen!”


About jam4JESUS

I... 'will seek [First] the LORD my God, and I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart and with all my soul.' Deut. 4:29 I... 'shall love the LORD my God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.' Deut. 6:5 I... 'Trust in the LORD with all my heart, And lean not on my own understanding; In all ways... acknowledge Him, And He shall make my path straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6 I... 'remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you' 2Tim. 1:6 I... 'thank God, whom I serve... without ceasing... I... remember YOU in my prayers night and day,' 2Tim. 1:3 I... am to 'Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God' Phil. 4:6 I... KNOW: 'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.' Phil.4:13 'My God shall supply all my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.' Phil. 4:19 'My GOD will never leave me, nor forsake me.' Heb. 13:5 JESUS so loves me, this I... KNOW
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