A “sit in”… Altared Grace

♪♪ There is joy!  There is fun!
There are seasons in the… Son.

And the trials that we shun,
sometimes leave us left… undone. ♪♪

You never know when you walk out the door on any given day, what the rest of the day will bring, or even if you will see the day’s end.  I have often pondered in thought… about the people who have passed away before me and wondered if they knew beforehand that it would be that day; the day the Lord had made for them.  Well, as much as I pray that “today” is my day, this day’s end would have a different conclusion.  You just never know!  “So be ready in season and out of season”…

“Preach the Word”

1 I solemnly charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by His appearing and His kingdom: 2 preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction. 3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires, 4 and will turn away their ears from the truth and will turn aside to myths. 5But you, be sober in all things, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.

6 For I am already being poured out as a drink offering, and the time of my departure has come. 7 I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith; 8 in the future there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day; and not only to me, but also to all who have loved His appearing.
[2 Timothy 4]

♪♪ There is joy!  There is fun!
There are seasons in the… Son.

But the hurt that takes place,
often leaves us in… disgrace. ♪♪

So at Sunday morning service [2/19/12] when I heard the call, by “Faith”, I calmly and humbly made my way to the altar and cried…

“I’m not leaving here Lord, until I get a miracle!”
“I’m not leaving here, without Your answer!”

… So I sat myself down, at the altar.


 ‘I asked You in worship, “Where do I want to go?  What do I want to do?  What do I need to say?  And, what do I need to know?”  I know I can’t be trusted for these answers, but You Lord have all the right ones for me.  I know You search my heart [Romans 8:27] and I pray right now that You deposit & find… where You go, what You do, what You say, and who You know… [mind-full] in there also.  Lord, I’m not leaving here without Your answer.  I need a miracle!  I can’t!  You can!’

I know that all that I bring to the altar will take a miracle… a transformation, not restoration.  How can one restore what was never there in the first place?!  So when I heard the Pastor’s alarm, the call… I saw the altar in a different light.  This right here [an altar of God’s grace] becomes a hospital, a classroom, a garden, a prayer closet, an emergency room, an ICU [And I like to define this as In Christian Unity], and today’s… sanctuary.

So here, I waited…
A “sit in” at the altar.

I know I am not alone in this.  There should be others here crying out with a similar song.  I know there should be at least one; who stood here with me nearly three years ago [4/11/2009] and said “I do”… but never did.  Oh my God, where are they?  Where is he?  How can they, like me, be sick to death of false living or just living together-married in sin & not be right here with me?  How can we sing “Hallelujah” and still not overcome?  We had one job to do– love the Lord our God first.

How can anyone know The Truth and still live a lie?  Do they need an ambulance?  Lord please send it!  So what do I take from those who walk away having not settled their differences with their brother or sister, before the court… and altar?  Why am I standing here by myself?  Can’t they read?

Matthew 5:23… Therefore if you are presenting your offering at the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24 leave your offering there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and present your offering.

“Lord, did I not make it easier for them, him?  No need to venture any further.  Here I am standing right here, ready to settle this… from this day forward.”
But instead of company, I’m still waiting… with God alone!

“I’m not leaving here Lord, without a miracle.”

“I am wrong; he is wrong; we are wrong!  I’m not leaving here Lord~ I can’t live in this sin one more day.  Today is Your day.  The kingdom is now… for such a time as this.  I can’t sweep sin under a basket anymore then I can hide the light there [Matthew 5:15].  I see in black & white…

We are either for God or we’re against Him.  We’re right with Him or we are wrong.  We live in the truth with Him or our life together is, but a lie.  NO MORE DECEPTION!  It matters not what we are, as long as we are truthful about being who we are [& living in His will for today].  Please Jesus, make this end…

“I’m not leaving here without a miracle.”

Having laughed, cried, and prayed my heart out, I laid across the altar [seemingly overcome with fatigue & grief], I noticed suddenly that I felt revived and with a new strength… like being mounted up on the wings of an eagle [or the dove carrying the olive branch that I could not take my eyes off of on the wall across from me, that I strangely had not noticed before].  From laying with my eyes shut, feeling the peace that only God can give~ I opened my eyes & saw in the ceiling tiles something [I also had not noticed before] that stood out to me… a STOP WATCH.  And for all those, like me, that need the Lord to sometimes yell or get in our face, when He wants us to listen or ‘get it’… I received [got] “STOP!” “WATCH!”

Less than an hour later, with my eyes now closed and embodied across the altar in prayer… My whole body began to tremble and I saw a massive light or consuming fire.  What I heard from this was “I have so much more for you.  And more than… you can take.”

When I looked again, an hour had passed. I became alert to the sound of time passing [tick tick tick tick] and my mind joyfully remembered my stop watch.  Each time I saw or heard, I trembled more, and always… before His blessing.  There was no mistaking Him this day.  And after all was said & done, I realized that my day was filled with prayer & fasting.

Matthew 17:19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not drive it out?” 20 And He *said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you. 21 [But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.”]

I had walked out the door this morning without a coat [I’d forgot it] or food & drink [I didn’t know I was staying].  But I was blessed to remember a half-full bottle of water in my purse, and more than enough Jesus who provided the [my] rest.

And if you’re wondering how “STOP WATCH” came to me, ponder this…

“STOP… Be still and know that I AM [He is] God!”
WATCH what I AM [He is] going to do…”


♪♪ There is joy!  There is fun!
There are seasons in the… Son.

And the trials that we face,
are now seasoned in His Grace.

For the pain we endure,
leaves us crying out “no more”…

There is joy. There’s a Son,
for all seasons “It is done!” ♪♪

I didn’t leave here without a miracle!
…  jams4JESUS

A “sit in” Altared Grace 

I remained long enough to both greet and say goodnight to “Sunday Night Live” fellowship at the church.  And much to my SURPRISE, the blessing continued…

Mark 10:46-52 (NLT)

Jesus Heals Blind Bartimaeus
46 Then they reached Jericho, and as Jesus and his disciples left town, a large crowd followed Him. A blind beggar named Bartimaeus (son of Timaeus) was sitting beside the road. 47When Bartimaeus heard that Jesus of Nazareth was nearby, he began to shout, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”

48“Be quiet!” many of the people yelled at him.

But he only shouted louder, “Son of David, have mercy on me!”

49When Jesus heard him, He stopped and said, “Tell him to come here.”

So they called the blind man. “Cheer up,” they said. “Come on, He’s calling you!” 50Bartimaeus threw aside his coat, jumped up, and came to Jesus.

51“What do you want Me to do for you?” Jesus asked.

“My rabbi,” the blind man said, “I want to see!”

52 And Jesus said to him, “Go, for your faith has healed you.” Instantly the man could see, and he followed Jesus down the road.


Hebrews 12 (NLT)

God’s Discipline Proves His Love
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.3 Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up. 4 After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin.

I cannot possibly share with you everything.  There is more than 10 hours of blessing to account for… maybe later if there’s time 😉

God Blesses…


About jam4JESUS

I... 'will seek [First] the LORD my God, and I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart and with all my soul.' Deut. 4:29 I... 'shall love the LORD my God with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength.' Deut. 6:5 I... 'Trust in the LORD with all my heart, And lean not on my own understanding; In all ways... acknowledge Him, And He shall make my path straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6 I... 'remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you' 2Tim. 1:6 I... 'thank God, whom I serve... without ceasing... I... remember YOU in my prayers night and day,' 2Tim. 1:3 I... am to 'Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let my requests be made known to God' Phil. 4:6 I... KNOW: 'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.' Phil.4:13 'My God shall supply all my need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.' Phil. 4:19 'My GOD will never leave me, nor forsake me.' Heb. 13:5 JESUS so loves me, this I... KNOW
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6 Responses to A “sit in”… Altared Grace

  1. As Christians and pilgrims in this world, we are sometimes impatient for the harvest to be finished and are saddened by the people who are unaware/ignorant/unbelieving of a Savior who loves them and is their only way to a life of transformation and salvation.

    I am praying with you that the Lord will continue His works by using us and that more people will be saved and will answer the call to serve Him. It is so GOOD to serve the Lord and everyday with Him, walking with Him and becoming transformed into His likeness is the greatest experience we could ever have as Christians.

    Have a great week and God bless you and your family sis!


    • jams4JESUS says:

      Thank you sister-friend! Your words of encouragement are a blessing to me!

      The ‘impatience’ that you speak of is so very real to me. I often pray to the Lord for His wisdom in this matter… I never want to come across as impatiently not trusting [or having a lack of Faith] in Him, knowing all things do work together for His GOOD. But I am conflicted by an intense urgency to take care of His business [The fields are white!] before He returns for me [us]… with my inability to get my point of & to Him across to others. My dismay is this… the investment of passion and fervor for the Lord, seemingly falls on deaf ears and sometimes hearts. So what seems blatantly obvious to me, appears as foolishness, difference, or indifference to others.

      I do believe better days are ahead. And through these great trials of Faith, we come out on the other side… even better. I have learned that I can’t tell anyone anything. The Lord has been specific with me “Don’t tell them… show them.” I have come to understand this from the perspective of a bridge. It makes sense to me that in order to share Jesus from where I stand, I must first locate and make a connection with others, in order to get a point across to where their standing.

      I can imagine that other people hold onto their beliefs [whatever they are] as tightly as I do mine. I believe the Lord designed us that way. So the only way I may find success in my delivery of The Gospel Truth, a love affair with The Lord, & a walk in The Spirit, is for me to “show them” what He has done for & through me. And from… here, let Jesus help them… there. “And we know that God causes all things to work together for GOOD, for those who love God, those called according to His purpose.” [Romans 8:28]

      THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LORD, and also THANK YOU for my new friend [lifebydmagdalene]!
      God Blesses…


  2. I want to show you how it is in my part of the world…in my country the Philippines, we are a majority of Catholics, the rest are the different evangelical churches and Muslims in the South and a few Buddhists, etc.

    We are doubly hard up in telling people here about Christ without it being a ‘religious’ thing. I am born a Catholic but was born again and is now attending a non-denominational church. It is difficult to invite people to church because Catholics will view this as a change in religion if they go to another church. Born again Christians here are tagged as Protestants (sorry but my countrymen view the world as Catholics – Protestants -Muslims). Families are divided here because of this, much like what Jesus experienced in the hard-core Jews in His time.

    But by God’s grace, people are drawn to Christ because of our own walk. They see that we react differently to situations, we are joyful regardless of our circumstances…we walk the talk. They see Christ’s likeness in us.We are the salt and light of this world. I believe that this is what the Lord is impressing on you sis.

    At HIs own time, we will see the harvest. On our own part, our willingness to say yes to Him and serve Him not on our own terms, but on His, is the most crucial part in His plan.



  3. This the link to the church I am attending Sis…may you be blessed with the words and videos contained therein: http://www.ccf.org.ph/


    • jams4JESUS says:

      THANK YOU for sharing both the reality & the intimacy of your walk with Jesus. You are truly an inspiration & a reality check to those of us [me] who have it relatively easy to share our faith. This is one of the reasons for my frustration. We have it made [easy] for us to speak or share our faith [with or without words] and yet we still fall remarkably short.

      I am privileged in comparison to so many. I have often thought that it should be the “mission” of other countries to come to US, verses the other way around. We [I] have so much to learn about humility, sacrifice, & obedience; of various trials & tribulations for Him.

      I know my post wasn’t very specific as to whom I may be talking to or making reference to, but those who are closest to this situation are “Christians” the “born-again”. There was one in particular who I was pointing out, because all other efforts have been exhausted and a divine intervention was the [my] only hope. This person is a believer that I can no longer align myself with or the deception, false witness, & willful sinning that goes with it.

      I am not talking about weighing sin. [I’d have to stand in the back of the back line for throwing stones.] I’m not even talking about measuring passion. I would just like to see a pulse for Jesus in everyone. ‘If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it, did it fall? Likewise, If you love Jesus and no one can see it… ?’ Most people hear me, they just don’t ‘get me’. To most I am too loud, too much, too bright, and too “bubbly”. I’ve learned to adjust my emotions to accommodate others… but I will NEVER dim the light for anyone’s comfort level.

      Thank you, Thank you, Thank you again for your wise insights and word. It serves to confirm for me several things [& Matthew 5 is among my favorites]. And I will definitely check out your link to the church you attend in some depth. From a quick glance, I found the website quite impressive. I don’t get to express my thoughts in a heart-felt, two-way discussion very often so our conversation has been refreshing to me. The Lord has truly gifted you indeed sis. You carry His oil BEAUTIFULLY.
      Our God sure is a God of great blessings…
      [btw… I’m not a Baptist, Methodist, Protestant, or Charismatic, etc. I am religious only about loving Jesus. I’m jams4JESUS!]


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